I Can't Be Trusted

I bought my CB6000 what seems like quite a long time ago - but it was only a month ago. For those new to my blog, my wife is unaware of my purchase but she is very aware of some of the advantages that my purchase has bestowed upon her: increased attention and physical adoration; more participation in cleaning the house; and improved performance in the bedroom.

The CB6000, when under the control of the cage wearing party, however, performs only as good as the "keyholder." In this case, I am the keyholder and the caged all rolled into one. Don't get me wrong, when I am good, I am very good...but the same can be said for when I am not good.

First, for those unaware, it is very possible to achieve an orgasm within the CB6000 - albeit an unsatisfying orgasm but an orgasm all the same. In other words, after a brief period of remaining locked, e.g., a week, one can become very aroused with very little stimulus. In my case, when fully engorged, the CB6000 is only slightly too small to contain me. When lubricated to reduce the likelihood of my head becoming stuck within the neck region of the cage during normal everyday wear, I can attain sufficient movement to cause a loss of orgasm control. Granted, I have found that this only is possible when I have abstained for a sufficiently long period of time, but still it is possible. Thus, I have to be very careful about what stimuli I am exposed to after only a very brief period of (self)denial.

Second, because I control the keys, I control when I remove the device. My wife is very vanilla and I am unlikely to convince her that the CB6000 is a good thing for her without having an extended period of "good behavior" that I can directly attribute to the wearing of the CB6000. Until that day arrives, I am engaged in the task of controlling when I wear the device and when I remove the device in a hybrid of an "honor system" and "under lock and key" approach. I am on the honor system when unlocked and I am on the locked-up approach, well, when I am locked up.

What does this hybrid system look like? I often lock the chastity device on before leaving for the office. I leave the device on while I am away from home during the day. I remove the device either on the way home or once I arrive at the house. I then clean the device and store it away until the next day. During the weekends, because I am with my wife and kids all day, every day, I remain unlocked. There simply is no time for any foul play during the weekends.

The hybrid system works great so long as I leave the keys in my car during the day. Because of the privacy of my office, I often have the ability to engage in activities that I should not engage in during the week. The lock and key approach generally removes the option and the pressure of remaining pure for my wife. I say generally because, as I mentioned above, after a sufficient period of time, I can attain an orgasm without removing the CB6000 even if it is unsatisfying (because I cannot touch myself during the orgasm - it is, in essence, a ruined orgasm). From the two times I have done this, however, I find it so frustrating that, learning from experience, I don't see this being a long term issue.

In the short run, I can't be trusted. Over the long haul, however, I believe that this hybrid approach will lead to the results that will have my wife asking about why my attitude has changed so much so quickly. When that day arrives, I won't need to be trusted.

The Comfort Zone

Today marks the two week anniversary of my purchase of the CB6000. The first day, simply putting on the CB6000 caused physiological excitement. That first night, believe it or not, I even ejaculated while locked in the CB6000. I almost gave up on the concept of chastity devices right then and there.

I experimented with ring sizes. I experiments with spacer sizes. I finally have settled upon the second to largest ring and the second to shortest spacer. I understand that the chastity device may stretch out the skin and, if that happens, I will be trying to move down one more ring size. Right now, however, the next smaller ring size seems to cut off circulation enough that the skin begins to turn reddish within a half-hour. I know, I know...too much information, but some people have asked by email so I thought I would throw it out there.

The first few times I wore the CB6000, I used no lubrication at all. I found that when I shrank, I would disappear into the shaft portion of the cage. With no lubricant, I had difficulty while locked moving into a position for urination. This problem could be rectified somewhat with a Q-tip cotton swap or the like but it also led to some slight discomfort.

Later in the first week, I obtained some personal lubricant and applied the lubricant to the head and shaft, which allowed movement within the cage during the course of the day. I found, however, that too much movement was allowed. I actually could very easily stimulate myself within the cage due to the ease with which I was able to slide within the cage. Because the amount of movement, in my mind, somewhat defeated the purpose of the chastity device, I stopped using the lubricant.

Near the end of the week, I dropped from the largest ring to the next smaller ring. The first hour or so in the smaller ring was fine but soon after that I began to experience a burning sensation in small regions of the scrotum where the ring was located. After poking around on the internet, I learned that the burning sensation was caused by overlaps in the skin that are not able to move freely. The solution, I learned, was skin lotion. I picked up some cocoa butter skin cream, which is the same stuff that my wife used during pregnancy to help avoid stretch marks, and have been using it ever since. While I have a very minor burning sensation from time to time, I can adjust under the ring and the sensation is alleviated.

I wear the chastity device from the time I am ready to leave the house in the morning until I return home late at night; usually I am locked for about 12 to 14 hours a day. This schedule affords me time to air out and allows my body to relax over night from any effects of the chastity device.

After the first 12 hour day, I could smell a distinct stale urine smell so I attempted to wash the chastity device with soap. While this decreased the smell to some degree, it didn't resolve it completely. I looked around and stumbled onto Wet-Ones. I now use Wet-Ones as soon as I remove the device. Wet-Ones or another antibacterial wipe seems to kill the bacteria that cause the odors. I wipe out the chastity device, allow it to dry and then follow up with soap and water. The chastity device has absolutely no smell the next morning. It is fresh and ready for a new day of protecting me from myself.

During the course of the day, I carry a small syringe from the drug store that I use to rinse with water after each trip to the restroom. I have found that the rinses have keep down the smell of urine that otherwise was building up over the course of the day. Yes, it is a bit awkward carrying a small syringe and a cup of water everywhere but, hey, it works and this isn't about avoiding awkwardness, now is it?

Finally, I also discovered within a couple of days the magic of the sock technique of fitting. For those that have not discovered this technique, you basically install the rings and just before sliding on the cage, you pass the closed toe end of a sheer calf-length stocking through the slit at the end of the cage. You then pass the open end over the head of your penis and begin sliding the cage into place. As the cage is moving toward the locking pins, you pull the penis head into the cage by pulling on the sock. Finally, when you are fully in the cage, the sock will slide off of the penis head and out of the cage. You now can comfortably lock the cage into position. After doing this just once, I found it so much easier than trying to cram myself into the CB6000 that I have used it ever since.

This week, the chastity device has become almost normal feeling. I don't notice it the way I did during the first few days or even during the first week. My desires to satisfy myself have dropped off dramatically. My wife and I are getting along much better than before I started wearing the chastity device. I am noticing smells and sights that I guess did not register with me before. A beautifully dressed woman catches my eye much more easily. The other day, a mom dropping her young children at school walked by me and I could smell her perfume. It smelled like Liz Claiborne, a scent I knew from my high school and college days. Things definitely are changing and I believe that they are changing for the better.

Wait - My Key is In There!

Picture yourself working in front of your computer on an upper story of a multistory business building. You are intently focused on the task at hand - aided by the chastity device tightly wrapped around your intimate parts. All of a sudden, the fire alarm begins sounding. You know this happens once or twice a year and you have to evacuate the building for ten to twenty minutes and then you return back to your computer and resume the tasks you were embroiled in prior to the interruption.

With the fire alarm sounding, you go to the window and peer outside. No smoke. That's a good thing. No fire trucks yet either. Wait, typically when there is a fire drill, the fire marshal is present and he drives a small red SUV. You don't see the SUV either. Could this be the real thing or is it just another drill?

You begin descending the stairs. One floor, two floors, three floors...then it occurs to you, your key to your chastity device is tucked away for safe keeping somewhere in your office. You know that you can no longer go back to your office; your floor has been cleared and everyone is headed down the stairs with you. You just begin praying that the fire alarm is only a drill...and thankfully it was.