Maybe i Am A Little Bit Gay

This weekend, on Sunday, i was thinking about whether i could be gay or not.  Not as in "am i gay?" but, more like, "is it possible for me to think/behave like a gay guy?"

Let me start with this: i truly don't care whether people are gay or not.  They are who they are and i accept and love them for who they are.  Gay, straight, bi ... i see everyone as a person, not a class of people.  i can't wait until the day when we stop trying to break society into a number of factions or groups and, instead, we start viewing everyone as distinctly different but still a valued part of the human race.

With that said, and maybe it was the pride weekend postings i saw from West Hollywood, but i was thinking about the question this weekend.  i was pleasantly surprised when i saw that Thumper also was thinking about the question.  See his posting here: "How i Know i am Not Gay"

Like Thumper, i must profess that "i love pussy."  My Wife does not believe me, but i could camp out down there and nuzzle, kiss, lick, suck and otherwise enjoy my time for hours.  i love the taste and, even more, i love the pleasure that giving oral provides to the recipient.  But it doesn't stop there for me.

i love the feminine form ... even when it is me pretending to be feminine.

i love the feminine form.  i love the curves of the larger bodies.  i love the softness of the female face.  i love the strength in the legs of some women.  i love the beauty in the tight body of some women.  i love the breasts in all women.  i love the makeup.  i love the hair styles.  i love the clothing.  i love the shoes.  i love how the makeup, the hair, the shoes, and the clothing work together to accentuate the form, curves, softness, strength and beauty.  In short, i love everything there is about the appearance of women.  i can't find a single aspect of the appearance of women that is disagreeable to me.

As i explore my innermost thoughts, desires and dreams, i find that i would love to be a woman; i am not, however, attracted to men.  i think the male body, including the penis, just is not pretty or cute.  In all of the pictures i see of gay men, and of all of the gay men that are my friends, i just am not attracted to them sexually.  Thinking of men in a sexual manner does nothing to turn me on.  i just enjoy being with women sexually too much.

On the other hand, and maybe confusingly, a penis on a shemale/transvestite/transgender/crossdresser ... i need to spend more time dwelling on that before i can come to any conclusions.  The softness of the appearance usually is enough for me to forgive the existence/presence of a penis.  For now, i'll call that a draw.

In any event, i am convinced that i am a little bit gay: the female part of me loves women and so, if i was a woman, i would definitely be a lesbian.  Because i have a part of me that is feminine...i am a lesbian trapped in a male body; that makes me just a little bit gay.

There, i said it, i am a little bit gay. ;-)

Interesting Tid-Bit For Those Considering Chastity

What style of jeans do you wear? Seriously. What style?

You might contemplate the effect of your sense of style on your chastity device. Let me explain. First, keep in mind that i normally wear suits, dress pants, or yoga clothing (think, loose fitting in the crotch-area, home of the aforementioned chastity device). Accordingly, the issue i am about to discuss rarely makes itself known.

Today, as i was dressing for a family outing (not that kind of outing - rather, a brief, enjoyable excursion), i put on a pair of True Religion jeans, the Bobby basic black style. It was then that i noticed the pressure applied to the chastity device. This pressure translates through the chastity device and to the body parts underneath the chastity device.  Due to the slight discomfort, i went through all of my jeans until i found the least uncomfortable pair to wear: my Gap Relaxed fit jeans.

Now, the chastity device truly gets the brunt of the pressure with unforgiving or unyielding clothing, such as jeans.  The downward force or rearward force applied to the cage portion of the chastity device translates back to the ring.  In the case of the Birdlocked Mini, which i am wearing at the moment, there is some stretch allowed in the connection.  On the other hand, the CB6000s, which i also wear from time to time, the connection between the cage and the ring is not so flexible.  In fact, i am willing to bet that the ring breakage experienced by so many is due in no small part to the types of clothing being worn over the locked package.

What should the chaste male wear, then?  For example, boxers or briefs?  If we are talking about treating the chastity device nicely, i would say boxers.  If we are talking about making the chaste male uncomfortable, i would say panties...er, briefs.  You see, when i wore briefs over the CB6000s, i noticed that i would develop bruising or pressure sores in the region where the ring contacted the area surrounding the body.  This is likely due to the pressure applied by the clothing choice.  Thus, to be gentle to yourself and to be gentle to your chastity device, wear boxers (or loose fitting panties, briefs, etc.) and suits or other clothing with room.  For some, skirts would be best.  ;-)

Be kind to yourself and let others handle the punishment.

-ch